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There Is Not A Foot Large Enough

Have you ever said something before that you wish you never said? Well, I do that a lot. Basically, it’s my insecurity coming out in the form of words:

“I’m never doing that again.”

“I don’t belong.”

“It’s not my cup of tea.”

“Thanks for putting up with me.”

Can you blame anyone for giving up on me? Damn, there’s that insecurity again. I apologize. I’m such an idiot. Actually, I’m not. I just have a lot of issues. I’m a good person, really. I just come across as an asshole. Have you noticed how every good thing I say about myself is immediately followed by a negative statement to counteract it? This is what I do. It’s not good a thing. And, honestly, it’s hard to stop.

I’ve been like this for most of my life. It’s ingrained in my psyche. But I’m trying to change. Really. It’s just so fucking hard to do. So if you do happen to see me at a party and you notice me sitting by myself and not participating in the conversation, don’t think it’s because I’m a dick. I’m just fucking scared to death. Anyhow, that’s if you see me at a party. Fuck. There I go with those negative statements again. Bleh.

Boy, wasn’t that a funny post.

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